I have been so excited to start this blog and so many ideas have been running through my head of what to write about. Then wouldn't you know, as soon as I started it, I was drawing a complete blank of what to write next. I have been thinking and thinking of what I should write about. There are so many things I could share on here, but nothing was really standing out. I was getting so frustrated, because of course as soon as I took the leap, this would happen haha! And then of course once I start, cue all the "negative" thoughts and stories about how this is a terrible idea, how I am not good enough, no one will read my stuff, etc, etc.. But that is what minds DO. Minds race. Minds tell stories. Minds create scenarios. Minds do all this work trying to protect you and keep you safe. That's their job. (I will do another post about this another day.)
So what do I write about? The question I keep asking myself. I want to serve a purpose here. I want to help others. I want to share insights. But how do I do that if I keep feeling inadequate? I notice those thoughts and stories my mind creates... About how I am not enough and that I do feel too inadequate to do this. When I think about this, it doesn't feel good.. It makes me feel like crap. It makes me feel heavy and sad. And that is how I know it's a LIE. It's a story my mind has created somewhere in my life that I am not enough or worthy. And that story has played on repeat for as long as I can remember. Not just about writing, but about anything in life.
I know so many people who have felt this way as well. I have worked with clients, talked to friends, family and others who are constantly experiencing these same stories. If you are one of them who experiences this as well, I ask you look at this. Just be curious about it and ask yourself, "how does this thought (of not being enough), make me feel?" I am going to guess it doesn't feel good, right? Does it make your chest feel tight? Does it make you tear up? Does it make you cry a lot? Do you get this pit in your stomach? Do you just feel heavy overall? If you answered yes to any of these, GOOD! That means you are human. And you brain is doing its job!
I am sure you are wondering why on earth is that a good thing to feel so crappy! Because, like I had mentioned earlier, that means you are believing a LIE. You are buying into a story that isn't even true. That is your body's way of showing you where you have gone off track. It's telling you, "hey you! You're off track and buying into this BS." How incredible is that! We are literally designed so perfectly that when we are stuck in these stories, the victim mode, these types of beliefs, our bodies tell us. That is incredible.
So by now, with this information you have just read, I bet most of you are wondering, "ok, so how do I stop these thoughts, beliefs, or stories? How do I fix it?" My answer is this.. Do nothing. You are not here to be fixed. There is nothing to be fixed. All that is happening is that you keep buying into these thoughts and stories. So I ask you to just notice that. Notice the next time you are feeling bad for yourself, feeling like you aren't worthy, loveable, capable, or whatever it is that is making you not feel good... just notice.. be aware of HOW you feel and WHAT you feel. If it's heavy, (which it always will be), then know it's just a story you are buying into. That's all you need to do.
If you want to hear more on this topic, please let me know! Thank you for reading <3
Love to you,
Nicole
